Today I Sit

I am a river winding in and out, up and down. My emotions calm, erratic, tranquil, rapid. And now I sit in another murky muck-like state of heaviness.

I feel pain in the one place I want to create joy. I want to feel expanded, purposeful, captivated by life. A life that I am giving to another — building a heartbeat, eyes to witness.

Instead, I feel handcuffed by another's vision for my life, our lives.

A blog is not always a happy place. Today it is a place of truth — my truth and only my truth.