WHAT IS PROJECT 42?

It’s really a catch all for things I want to change, tackle, learn, have a role in, visit, and be a part of over the next 365 days. 

I will take on getting in shape (again), addressing my aging, feeding my soul, getting grounded, starting this brand, building a business, speaking up, sharing a lot, and doing some scary-epic shit (for me). 

Why, you ask? 

Because I really enjoyed who I was before I put everyone else in line before me. Losing site of ‘Me’ wasn’t on purpose… and happened so slowly that I don’t know if I was aware until it was a bit ‘too late’.

I pulled back on myself for different reasons — because I was now a wife, parted with my career, moved to a new city full of strangers, and later became a mother to twins. 

I did it because at the time if felt easier to ‘cut myself some slack’ and underperform because I was scared. Because being away from the town I knew and the friends I loved made me shrink inside. Because I didn’t know how to be a wife… and definitely didn’t know how to be a mom.

And so it became easier for me to use that stuff as my excuse to stay away from ‘Me’ rather than looking at ‘Me’ and saying, “I am sorry for neglecting you, for taking advantage of you, for putting you on pause, for ignoring your pleas, for believing that you were not strong enough to turn things around earlier…for believing that you’d never understand.”

Well, ‘Me’… I do understand. And I do forgive. And I do love you. 

I believe in you and know that you will rise again. I believe that you will be a great role model for life where your children are concerned, and be lovingly inclusive where you can be in this year’s adventures and challenges.

So that’s what this is — 365 days of shifting.

Project 42